Our team began with 19 sales reps and now we’re down to 14. Among those original members, 2 quit, 2 had to leave due to family issues, and 1 got fired.
Today’s daily training video featured the CEO telling us ‘You can quit whenever you want, but once a quitter, always a quitter. Don’t give up on yourself or you’ll make a habit of it in the future.‘ I don’t really believe in that. People quit for different reasons. I’m sure he did some research and found that around Day 19 is when most new reps feel like quitting so they placed the video on this day.
Almost every three days I’ve contemplated leaving. It’s just so emotionally demanding. It breaks you down.
Today I sat on a curb feeling defeated once again. I pulled out my iPad, hopped on Evernote, and drew out two columns. On the left, I wrote out an exhaustive list of all my fears and all the reasons I don’t think this job is a good fit for me. On the right, what I could do to solve it.
Here’s what it looked like:
By writing down my fears, I was able to better understand their nature and show myself that I was in control and that I was mentally blowing my fears out of proportion.
The last point at the bottom carried a lot of weight for me. My mind strongly relies on facts and numbers to prove things to myself.. so seeing that these 4 months were less than 0.1% of the time I have to spend in my life.. made this whole thing seem minuscule in the grand scheme of things.
Everyone goes through hardship in their life, but it is in these darkest moments of our lives where we learn the deepest lessons.
It’s kind of like venturing super deep into a dark cave and finding a treasure chest of wisdom at the bottom.
I affirm to not quit no matter what.